Forgive yourself each night
and recommit every morning.
I don’t tend to go to just one person. I often go to 2 of my best friends who help me through it. For one of them I don’t tend to tell everything (I feel the need to protect her/not tell her certain things that would scare her), but for the other I literally tell her everything. Like literally everything. If I didn’t have her, I don’t even want to imagine where/how I would be right now.
The person who helped me come to my realization yesterday was actually my teacher. She didn’t say anything different from what I’ve heard from my 2 friends, but she did add a few things and articulated it to me in a way that was really eye-opening. Hearing it from an adult and someone who isn’t around me as often as my friend are really made me take a step back and look at things from a new perspective.
I think you need to talk to who you feel most comfortable with, and that may be different for you than it is for me. The most important thing is that you get the help and support you need. For example my teacher is helping me see someone to talk (because I haven’t seen someone for a while).
Stay strong and keep fighting, beautiful <3